Sunday, January 29, 2012

Walking Home

"Oh night of unending snow, please don't let me fall!" she thought as she made the familiarly long trek from her car parked way down the block to the warm assurance of her Cobalt Blue apartment door.

The magical slowness of crystal falling all about her, prismatically catching the street lamps, made her feel dreamy and restless at the same time. Her mind, the hare, raced over the evening's events- the wine, the opening, the library office, the letter she accidentally saw- all of it. Her body, the tortoise, slowly made deliberate and measured lace of the shimmer below.

This was a feeling she was very used to, having lived here all of her life, but for some reason it always felt unprepared; almost crazy. How can the body, so flexible and supple become a stiff stick figure; toes clenching invisible ground through shoes and eyes divining through the amassed white glitter a methodical path devoid of dreaded black ice? Couldn't she have stored up some of the humid heat from summer? Some of the steadiness of running spring mornings? How could this body with its heavy thoughts feel like it was learning to walk again?

Although...everything in her body did feel light and transcendent for the first time in a long time. Melted almost. His last touch still searing through her yellow sweater; surely her skin was singed beneath its fibers. She would have to check later.

What he said that night would stick with her for years. It would haunt her thoughts and push her onward.

One word...only one word. The simplest answer to her complex question.

"Yes"

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Chance

if everything is as it was
in his smile
it was all worth it
for that small while
when i had that
coy black glance
and never more
At least I took my chance
on everything
as it was
in my core

The Year Before Love

THE YEAR BEFORE LOVE

THE EARTH GLISTENED, UN-ADORED

TILL THE FIRST TEAR FELL


Friday, January 27, 2012

Seeing You

I don't
need
to close
my eyes
to
see
you anymore

...life is good.

Sky Song

I took to the sky tonight
to dream
Pretty Dreams

I look to the sky tonight
to wish
Lovely Wishes

I feel you in my sky now
as I land
on Pretty Land

And sky, tonight, watch me
embrace
my Lovely Love

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Learning


I am learning your language
to use it against you
We both know this
And yet still you teach me so gently
Each roll of the tongue
Each sweet sound
and little letter
Words of love are the words of war
And now
in my infancy
I rest my head on the tip of my pen
But this, we both know,
is the salutation to a manifesto.

Moving Trains

My head broke when I heard the news.
My time is too short here
to not run to you
at full speed.
But moving trains
and tomorrow's paper
will show
that at half speed
the heart breaks
slow.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Saying I Love You

Saying I Love You
For the first
Is Equal-
Equal true death equal life eternal.
He She whoever bows down
To receive a sword or a crown
Or this word
Or lie down
Both risk and reward almost too great
to trust to the openness of another's soul
And hope for the full mend of a prior heartbreak
and secretly hope it was merely a bend.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Mass

Celebrate all you have done,
all you have been,
count those stones cool in the hand,
one by one,
after they've filled your jar to see how truly full you are,
how truly you you are
with the great mass of your life grounding you,
connecting you,
sewing your feet to this spinning world,
flying your soul as a kite,
plugged into the electricity of the earth;
the energy which moves mountains as well as a tear down the cheek-
A universal call to all who believe in enriching each day with their mere evoluting.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Undone

Not having Kissed Him
Goodbye,
She was left Half
Undone, Burning
Lips Seared
with Words
Left Unwhispered

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Truths

For whosoever cannot see
a very aged hypocrisy
Belies the truth and flies the sheath
I, sir, prefer what lies beneath
The touch of truth upon mere skin
sinks deeper than a lie within
and resonates the sound of love
white flags bright light and flighted dove
and rests the peace of conscience unwound
upon these pieces of life finally found
So yes, sir, I prefer the raw
if only to confer what I saw
The heart that beats
The soul that cries
The passion pushing through the lies;
it's a truth
you might despise.




Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Les Survivants

Having survived,
I find it fitting to share my truth,
to help you find your path through youth-
Having survived you;
my tumultuous tempest
who blew me down
not out
and now
they write of my glow in the City of Lights,
my cinders power the NY night,
less Cinderella than Rainabowbrite.
Having survived your love
I garner the right
to love you again
despite.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Joy


I'll take you as a gift
When I can
Open it
For life is so beautiful
I cannot impress it enough
But let me try
Through everything I touch
Every Person I've ever loved
And will love

I use my body as a message
A race to recreate existence with my own hands- all of it
To express Myself- this unrepeatable anomaly
this joy in knowing

And you are now kneeling at my temple
You tell me I look beautiful
But I know you have seen your soul dance around the fire in my eyes
And have been changed
Your perfect mirror, if you choose to look
Will he look?
this joy in not knowing
hard to explain

Paramount Pleasure in being alive
Majesty of Breath
Surrounded by the Miracles in the Mundane
still
at the end of the day
Let it be me looking into your eyes
Let love be the last thing I see.




Saturday, January 7, 2012

Familiar Ring


The resonances of a dead romance struck me like a detuned bell
Dumb
Wrong
Still striking some discordant chord a choir of skeletal angels who never made it to heaven
The echoes of my sighs in this ailing auditory matrix now only soothe
this Phantom Heart
which no longer exists-
No forwarding address
Just cease.
And just let me go to the Elysium where goes all lost lovers
Wandering alone
In greatness that was theirs alone
Calling out unpronounceable names
When the search is always for oneself
Amidst the reeds

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Much Too Far


To see without thinking
Feel without reacting
Vacuum chamber
Not real
A foregone conclusion linked my senses
And too soon I know far too much
Holding jars of water for the whole tribe
before the rain showed strain
And later
canonized as wise.
In the moment though,
I was the girl with the silly
burdened arms
clutching lovingly far too many jars.