New Year

I mistook you for the city itself

and loved you like its tallest building

Wrapped my bridges around you

and let my brass leaved sconces light you 

beyond the witching 

and well past anyone's bed hour

Ours was a New Year in my heart 

and for you I fitted myself in all winter's finery,

Clinked champagne in the crackling warmth of your marbled hearth,

Velvet cloaked your windows in crimson incandescent intimacy and satin bows

Swirled everything in our world- 

dancers round your ballroom, 

trains round your streets,

and stirrers round your Manhattan

Mistaking you for a Bronze map star

in bold Capitols

 in a Steel age

Magnified the man

 And made the most of you, my beautiful host

You stand still glimmering in the fallen stardust of celebrations freshly ended

 and in my Rose Golden eyes seem perfection itself

but I hear now my own Silver bells

let it be your comfort then

that with each faint chime

your City Angel 

spreads her own Golden wings

and sees the love she projected upon you,

as the gift of her gilded glance,

rose blinded,

a mirage of city distance

but still the core of all love.

But my darling,

we will always have the city

and I will always light it for you.

Within

Within

the utterances of a foreign tongueless language

a currency made of light

from this place

I can know 

all anyone ever could

A search party roams freely

into your own depths

tiny lanterns

within felt as

scintillant truths

beyond the way words fool us into believing;

through the windows curtained only by soul

those gossamer sheaths,

a fig leaf, 

covering something bigger and older

than a soul

If you can imagine a time

when you were me

and I was everyone

then you can declare 

to authentically see

this stare

from 

not there

but 

within

then my darling, 

I shall call this search party off

In another life

In another life

we danced under starlit trees

barefoot on cool forest soil

as you twirled me 

a milky way spun 

in my planet struck eyes

Back then I existed

And even before that one

we tangoed through tangled wines,

unburgeoned brush

my firelit eyes

sparked and sparkled

as you dipped me in afterglow

And even prior

our forms formed new shapes

in former lives

slow dancing in lapping waves

waltzing in water

whilst my ebb tide eyes poured over

the miracle of your being

But in this one

we somehow forgot to dance

and to hold each other

as the sky holds the stars

as the smoke holds fire

and the sand holds the sea

but oh how your dancing eyes

still hold me

where on this earth can we go

so we can dance

and I can make you remember?

Crescent

Before there was time

Before there was arrangement

There was this

Before the world's first tear

first birth

first kiss

I'm just here

because of all prior bliss

Trying to comprehend

the loveliness 

And up above

As I wait, count breaths before daring move

I see the love of light

And before he comes

before he leaves

he takes with him that bright

And leaves behind all else;

night

and in our crescent moment

a fraction of the whole

I loved him 

despite

In lieu

In lieu

In absence

Let my words speak

what lips cannot

Ease

You know how to cross these streets with ease

As a dancer

Eyes closed behind Tom Fords

Taxis, snapped at, beckon to your forearm

like a harem of gold & midnight

And your smirk; 

that sly crooked look

that shows both your sides-

your Apollo & your Hades

It keeps them coming

to second guess

to anthroapologize

and weigh your brilliance

against your shadow.  

Home

This feeling of "home"

Sliding landscape,

cartography of perspective

where the soul has made something in soil

where the eyes awake to their scrape of sky

And I fly my foreign flag

My most out of body experience 

in your body

in this unfamiliar

you called home

the habitation you have made habit

I'm on a visa, a passport, 

a worker's release

But I cannot push my roots into this soil

without the flower falling.  

Travelling

In travelling

I have found myself.

Weight

How much can the weight of a book

cost in knowledge,

in weight lifted?

Can its heaviness find that gravity in me?

Can its lightness set us free?

Can pound for pound we be found,

Page for page emancipate our inner sage?

Can one book mark your turning point;

point you towards the shelf

where you may know thyself better?

Can you see the word for the letter?

Can the weight of wisdom displace that of fear?

Can you weigh in on this matter dear?

Peace

He was the peace in me

The dawn, the rain, the lily dove

Some called it music

He called it love

where all's fair

But I was only leasing him;

didn't even want to 

pull his hair

because when you know these things-

that he's bound to go-

you let him keep

his unclipped wings,

you let his music flow

And now the peace that was in me

is, I don't know.

Grass

Sitting on the grass

I feel at home.

This is what my earth makes

As opposed to your apartment building

across the street of black tar

which I cannot cross.

Frozen here in the warm grass

wanting roots

warm from soil

but not to pluck for your crystal vase.

Your crystal place shines and gleams

all earth glitter wealth

but where is the heart

the hearth

the health?

I wish you would run out here naked

and open to the day-

Oh then would we play and I say 

yes

But the stiffened manner of your

dress to impress

makes me want to dig in this dirt

and flirt with my wild side,

this unbridled bride

must be hard to hold;

never doing as told

too bright and 

too bold

to grow in the shade 

of your perfect life behind blinds

and you look blind to my simple finds

so to this grass I fled

to love with my heart

and not with my head.

Grow

Flower

What right have you 

in stillness 

to grow

so passively beautiful?

A divine right

that predates God

because if beauty is not what we are

then what?

Found

It's immeasurable beauty

watching this butterfly

flutter and find me

among the flowers

having found you

and feeling found.

He promised to watch over

on petal wing and prayer

and now he appears here,

and you're there.

Oh the coincidence of nature

from afar;

A spiraled golden mean

and you my precious found rolling stone

are the jewel no one's seen

save for inside these brown golden eyes

where I see you as you are. 

Lyre

what beautiful souls have I loved

Each unfurling a beam of Godlight

Each touch made of love

Each heart they let me hold

I honored in the temple of my spirit

My body, a divine messenger,

showing you 

God Loves All

and leaving you 

more aware of your blessings

This, my always aim.

My lyre does not falsely sing;

My heart is no liar.

So when I have loved you

I have left you with part of my eternal.

Perhaps just your sparkling eye

Perhaps your life lamp

Shine on love forever

Fall

Bright belle aire

Crisp tones

Fall befell a beauty

Rouges and Browned wishes

Colder lips form kisses

To keep the warmth inside

No longer can I hide

in eternal summers

Cinnamon and cider

Pumpkin patches

pull my autumnal child out to play

while hands chap a bit

and new ghost stories are born

Just Cause

Just looking for a cause to believe in

with my beating, human energy

For me,

that was you

Decorate

Your air is purified because it went through me

And I love you

"Deeper than the ocean,

Brighter than the sun"

Who knew such beauty lived inside my head?

Only now, you know.

Decorate me with the shimmering trinkets of love in this world-

Flowers, Gold, Jewels, and Letters

Cover me in gentle words,

and glittering tomorrows

No one knew beauty lives here

But now you know

Two Watches

I seized a gorgeous moment 

with you

Caught up to our nows

like two new watches

ticking in same time 

so smile at me

perfect

complex yet so simply put

I feel you 

completely 

in sync

Within

As unbelievable as the breeze

on its knees

asking please

to marry

that's what he was.

Yet it was a pact

we could not undo

once done.

And looking at my finger

I see my skin

but know better

the band within

that bound us 

like Castor and his twin 

Tip

You must love me to have me 

because on the tip of you 

I will leave my light

Split

Light broke this morning

Split everything true

Red from Blue

Me from You

And the prismatic circle on the cloud

Reminded me 

of Earth's circularity

Around the roundness

we shall again meet

my darling

Sure as my ring sits somewhere 

in the ocean

Tell You

Do you want me to hold your hand

Tell you the things he didn't?

I'm just a song

Beauty in the earmagination of the beholden

So listen

Leash

Oh that leash got me

And you suppose

I would be relieved

In a smaller box

Behind a taller fence

In which to create 

But oh how they'll tell stories

Of the lines I colored through

The fences I hopped

And the world I bore outside of the box

For now though

I sit

I stay

Steep

We steep each other in mantras

Like weak tea from strained leaves

Clutter Clatter Silly Chatter

Passed down promises of the limits of these lives

And somehow we decided

to stop expanding;

but rather on the Great Wednesday of the universe

we decided to dim the lanterns, 

turn back inward

go home

and live on the grit of these dwindling words

falling around us like paper bag leaves

steeping around us 

water to dust

One Man Raft

You're too busy surviving 

On your one man raft

To turn around and see your flailing love

Good for the gander

Noose for the goose

You left me like an ailing dove

When all I really wanted was to move into your heart

and make you a part of my standing ground

But you paddle on 

doing what's best for you 

And if it suits you 

perhaps turn around

And if in luck still hear a splashing sound

But only after your own safety's found

Emoticon

Wonderful body

I use to move my perspective forward

I don't even feel pounce per ounce

as legs run away

Above 

I float

In a happy face thought bubble

Emoticon

The con

for the complex beneath

And the life that gets itself

And lives beyond us

Greener Grass

Cause I see so many of them 

with greener grass stains on their knees

and all they gave up to please

I can't appease

I rather walk the dirt 

get called a tease

Because deep down she knew her red white and blue

was true

and must pursue it beyond the red and white bars

beyond the starstruck things they told her to do for fame

Since Aunt Sam went on the lamb

things just haven't been the same

Silver Bird

Silver Bird

light caught your wing

on your ascent

I love you free

did I ever tell you that?

The glory

never ceases to amaze me,

a centennial bell choir

Clouds standing tall

reaching the heights to see 

the orange glance of their

beloved mistress

their overarching maestro.

the girl beside

plays with shadow puppets

and you below

only now arise

June

All bright

Summer morning kiss

Farewell sweet May moon

Which only in the hour

met the June

And thy July

mustn't come too soon

A Tad

Everything I've hoped to find in one

I've had

At least a tad

In every cad

My love lines more like plaid

In place of a patient state of lady grace

Live my love lives more like lace

But not the kind that covers each trace

You throw stones as you sit with your diamond in place

But I know jade envy when I see it on a face

To Have and

It may take more than one man to hold me

Asked You

All of life is a dance

And I just asked you to dance

So dance with me

Stings

So long as passion stings me

I will always have a song to sing thee

Worry not for I only go that way

Wherever the breeze carries leaves to the quay

Picture Book

All your pretty lives

In my picture book

Again and again

You touch me the right way

the wrong way

I'm sorry 

I loved you

So pretty 

U

New Sound

I've played every single one of your instruments

and still need a new sound

a little toy

to play with 

when you're not around

Stored You

I've somehow stored you in my eyes

I gaze into mirror and see you looking

And loving me

As if I were the invention of woman

And you a man a million years alone

Now

Resolution or resurrection

Whatever the foe

Whomever the friend

I have this plan for you

Take me now

Or leave this

Rock Free

Here I lay on this beach

Seaweed strewn drowned guitars

wash up to dune and back out to sea

Shell colored drum heads 

roll in with tides 

cockles and high hats and scallops and rides

A band of freedom I can never touch

In which no one can ever play

Just see it leaping in the wave

The notes lapping up between my toes

Even that felt like too much

But both feet in could truly save the music 

you so freely gave

But as my hand went to the land

Ever unplanned you just float away

Charade

As you were walking in your joy parade

Leading the band

Waving the crowd

I was writing you a quiet note

A hushed psalm

Shushed loud

And you were spectacle

I simply spectacularly shy

And I 

Let your two ring sigh

Ring through these halls for days

And now find confetti and cups

In the places we laid

Your big charade

Shake You Off

Until my better senses kick in 

let me shake you off

A Dare

I dare you to stand naked before me

and not be blown apart

by the sheer need to dematerialize

and join again with me whole

Stand there and look at me

Drink me as the heart drinks blood

I have known you my whole life

Without knowing you at all

Secretly kept the fire alight 

the dream that love made is love created-

Real

Exists

Now not only within the Mona Lisa smile
defining the sky of this room
divining

as naked I sit

still in front of you

And watch you disappear into being

Moat

Entering my body

Gets you into the moat

surrounding my heart

Which is the castle
But stay the serenade of townsmen
and their foundried bellows;
those metaled assignations of the heart and mind
compounded to stone
a vicar for the ruby kindness
and the stakes which protect this dull pink ache
oh yes
you are inside of this prodigious dominion
but do mind the dragons

Beautiful

If only I could put his beautiful soul

into your beautiful body

Sleeping

Did you think

One clover kiss

would raise me

make me 

run into your velvet arms?

I've been sleeping 

for one hundred years,

had one million dreams

a little presumptuous?

Since last I was laid

to rest, this rusty past

comes back in flakes

of dusk coloured days and 

fairytale fades 

to deep sleep blue-

was it you?

Back when?

Whose heart was true?

Why don't you

make me love you 

again

All Summerlong

And this is where we lived.  All summerlong.  We came and went into the city at our feet, feeling rich and adorned by its constant buzzing din; a choir of daylight driven feet and a glittered midnight symphony of raw joy.  Joy in the rise and fall, in the ability to make it or be broken here in this real city.  And if we can do it here.  

So we did it there all summerlong.  You were comfortably mine and I, yours.  Ferry rides and weekend escapes infused us with the nurture of nature.  You holding my half-summer-sweatered wheaten hand, I feeling you like strong rope.  I was a sail which took you higher, farther, faster, brighter.  You were the anchor which kept me ground bound and beating like a pulse, my flesh hot for your touch always.  

The black lacquered door held behind it a dreamworld.  One which does not exist now, a Shangri-La you will seek in your later years when you realize I was not a mirage of emblazoned days- your saving drop of crystal water.  

Now the turn key twists into the abandoned gold abyss and there is no more of our tryst behind that door.  You sought autumnal success to spring into your winter ages secure.  The only cure was everlong always summer.

Fairy Tales

We fairy tales are not supposed to believe in 

scientists either

Old Love

You used to be so clear

You used to be so here

My favorite little "yes"

Don't know where that spirit went

Really miss that heart shaped love

Those words were free birds

Flying rainbows round me

I hope you know

I hope to grow

A pretty little garden inside of your chest

and make new love for you

my old love
a colorful crest
a jade-proof vest

remind you who you are

Island

Remember we're a radio signal away

A dire sweep past several many bay

A dial notch past right

A trial past good night

And five wrong turns behind to try to pay

the toll, the till, your bill

we were wrong to stray

in the same way we're here to stay

but don't say I'm stranded here on your island

I lost allegiance to the expected

my flag flying sequins

made of the last dress I wore

the last distress hit the shore

S.O.L.

and you came 

Firecracker

Forever your firecracker

this, my plymouth rock,

a sparkling riot of platinum promise,

to always shine for you 

most brightly

mes chéris,

and to always keep you guessing.

This summer butterfly

casts no shadow on your hallowed smokey ground. 

Let me be the one in the sky

bursting into color filling your world with sound

as you lay to slumber

Goodnight rocky mountain darling,

burn each last ember for me

as night's starline turns to dreaming

and I will be above you 

freely streaming

Chasing Sunsets

And we keep chasing these sunsets

Realizing in afterhours

we should have shared more kisses

than words.

Your warmth keeps finding me

as I race backwards through time to keep you

young and beautiful,

fond of me and

my golden ways;

these golden days

always returning.

As you are almost gone I garner the wherewithal

to look directly at you.

I tell you 

all I've ever yearned to say;

declare you my Sun King

as you dip down below,

but I must remember

you burn,

not glow

all over my skin in a skein of tangled wishes

we once tossed into the billows

like copper coins.

My lilliputian form stands still 

against the rails of it

as my will declares its constancy and watches you go down

I take with me this ebony flow

this solid peace-

I know

 you, also, will not go out.