On

I have powered you on

work for me

demo yourself

show me what you can do

what you are made of

don't make me undo you

unscrew you

have to check your batteries;

what makes you tick

let me only turn you on

screw you

use you

as i see fit.  

Roamed

I want to take my time on you

Even my words

want to linger on the hills of your name

You have been roamed

and named

in ecstasy 

for passion's sake-

I chose you

and all along

you thought you

chose me.

Ready

Ready for real

wooden joints and painted smile

permanent expression,

perpetual style in ad finitum,

and yes cannot mean no

ever.

Yet all shades appear black here

Ready to feel

your warmth, your cold,

your love, your protection

from the harms

of this world

and its grabbing arms

Ready to kneel

instead of strongly always stand

and crawl with my knees as 

equals to hands

and cry real salt tears into the sand and dirt

Ready to steal 

the lesson from the hurt;

the happiness from the 

burial

of all loves past

Ready for us to truly last.

What I've savored slowly 

I'm giving up fast

and free

I'm ready for you love.

Be ready for me. 

Believing

These moments before truth

or proof thereof

are full of questioning

and excited doubt?

belief?

What relief to find

what I think I found

but

if love leaves me

heaven bound

on the ground

you will catch me

believing

still

in rainbows and stars.

Alive

And in feeling him enter me

I was again alive.

Enlivened,

Bodily whole.

Aware of my aching;

of what was not there before-

my other half.

The laughter borders the tears,

the joy in this special pain.

And completely covered in what

later would be defined

as love.

Paper Doll

It's hard to be your paper doll but on paper we're fine

It's hard to smile a paper smile when on paper you're mine

It's hard to love a paper doll such a fragile thing to do

And pretend with all our paper lies the doll is not...

It's hard to live a paper life but we do it so well

It's hard when papers glamourize our pretty little hell

It's hard to love a paper doll such a delicate coup

And pretend with all our paper lies the doll is not you.

Confidence

Confidence

a word shuffled around this week

but what does it mean?

It means celebrating yourself

self-actualizing your dreams

choosing your paths,

fantasies,

possibilities,

and knowing with all certainty

that you are the o.n.e.

they will never forget

and cannot do without;

knowing how much of your life bleeds into the life force of others.

Feeling your own pulse as a thrust in life's machine.

Important.

Blessed.

Cherished.

and Free.